ok so I’m a liar. I said I would write more…but I haven’t. It’s hard for me to do anything with any regularity…even breathing. My life is so full of complicated and diverse activities…
This morning I walked over to Urban Ore and perused the junked treasures…. I experienced a strange sensation of nostalgia and dizzyness as I wandered through the dust saturated items. There was something about the turn-of-the-century black walnut fireplace mantle and the old-fashioned spinning wheel,next to the scattered pieces of old computers and outdated film projectors,that gave me the same sensation I have when reading a good fiction novel…like I was really in another world. Everything I picked up had a history and as I looked at each thing I felt a sense of possibility for how it could be used,what I could make it into. I turned things upside down,squinted an eye,checked electrical connections,and slowly ran my frigid hands across handmade and machined surfaces. I was swimming in a creative black-hole of never-ending projects and I imagined having an artist studio there in the building where I could tinker and dream for weeks and months….
Breathe! whew! ok put it down. focus…. there is something I actually need…. a couple of brushless DC fan’s for the video projector I’m building. AH HA! found em. Only $3 each. Just saved $50 vs the new ones I saw at Radio Shack. I grabbed a couple strange looking light fixtures for the imaginary lamps I keep dreaming of making,a strange chrome bullet-like thing and a temperature gauge I might be able to install in my veggie oil truck.
Walking back to the warehouse,I wish I had more time to play and build things…the satisfaction I get from tinkering goes back to being a small child;a huge box of Legos,my first chemistry set,learning to fix my bicycle,making moonshine in my closet in junior high,the sticky smell of pine sap as I nailed yet another board into the tree-fort,and blowing up Robo-tech models with M80′s and gasoline.
Today I will edit some video,put new wicks on the Fire-Fans the ladies will be using next week in the Fire Ballet,and perhaps move forward on the video projector enclosure…I feel pretty lucky right now. Like I’m finally transforming my life to be able to make a living doing something I love. My next big wish is that I could live somewhere with a bathtub and lots of green plants!
