Tomorrow I will mark 37 years around the Sun….
And I feel as if I may as well be turning 40. A mid-life moment. Not gonna say crisis, cause in a way that word is too small and too immediate. My whole life has been a crisis of sorts – always shifting, always questioning, always trying something new…” a time of intense difficulty, trouble or danger” as well as a time of intense joy, ease and safety. Life has felt very full.
And now I seek roots. I seek land. I seek connection to a place. My visionary image is that of a very old and beautiful tree – planted, rooted, majestic, life giving, and weathering what comes – being committed to a place.
And though I feel this massive Oak tree inside me, I am still but a tiny acorn rolling willy-nilly down the hill.. bouncing on the rocks, avoiding the squirrels, looking for that most fertile of places in which to hunkerdown, but mostly feeling cast by fate into the river of time… floating in spirals of possibility and watching the sky continuously change from grey to white to blue to orange to red to black….
My friends, for my birthday as ask for a simple gift from you. A magical gift of manifestation & connection.
I ask you to hold a vision in your hearts of a beautiful magical rural home – a place where many of you can come to gather in the summer time, retreat to in the winter time, a place that is vibrant and life giving, with clean water and fresh air and bountiful trees. A space to build things, a space to grow things, a space to learn. Good. Now imagine a string of hands reaching out to me… maybe one hand is yours, maybe in your other hand is a friend’s, maybe she reaches to another, and another, until that circle comes back around and a new hand reaches mine. And within that circle of friends there is a place called home. And I ask spirit to reveal this place to me through this circle – a real place of soil and rock, leaf and flower, house and shed. And may we someday soon stand in a real circle in that place and join hands and reside in the hearth of community. So mote it be.
I will be in Portland March 2nd – 4th, and dropping into the Bay Area Fri Mar 7th – Sun Mar 9th I hope to see some of my friends!