a few days prior to leaving for ofc i was in a coffee shop, doing my best to ground in the chaos, noise, light, people, a small town gone crazy with a pet parade. why do these things effect me so? truly i have given up trying to figure it all out. at this point i see that i must do what feels right for myself. these actions which entail following inner guidance and unseen wisdom, do not correlate to the mainstream lifestyle and functioning of modern society. the counter i was holding onto for grounding was vibrating and making me less grounded, the floor shaking as well, my mind begging the barista to hurry with my drink. all of it making me ill to the point of wanting dearly the ability to wiggle my nose and instantly be home in my cocoon.

you said it isn’t you that is sick, it was the building. i see it as many things and the buildings, the things we surround ourselves with, foods we intake, smells, people, environments, are all apart of the process. as we, humanity as a whole, lighten ourselves, our emotional baggage, chemical intake, surrounding noise, etc… we see more clearly, feel more clearly, and know the illness that effects the mother, the spirit, soul and physical of our beings, our collective consciousness and our way of living on this planet. the plants are here to help, the rocks, trees, water, fire, wind. the indigenous ways are speaking louder and coming back to show us how to walk on the planet. AND, many are being called to help, to step into their places. perhaps you are one of them. we all have a place in the process.

the night i met you at the country faire, i was at the tail end of a similar experience. earlier during the day i went into white bird for some band aids, quickly realizing i needed to leave the space, i ended up throwing up, my inner knowing telling me i was helping to move the sadness i picked up in that particular place. sometimes i can be in a space and sometimes i can’t. there is no thought logic to it, only inner wisdom.

that night, i wanted to participate with my friends in the celebration and joy. doing my best to be within the chaos and beauty that is one, i spent most of the night going deeper and deeper into myself to find serenity and peace. it is my continued lesson on how to be this, me, and to still be able to play with those i love. however, in order to do this i also have to entertain folks who choose not to clean themselves up, who chose to drink a fifth of whiskey and throw their emotions and thoughts onto others. by the time i had the pleasure of your acquaintance i was so deeply rooted in my self protection, that i could find no words, yet i was able to see the light in your beautiful eyes and to hear the joy of your heart in your laughter. it was a blessing, thank you for speaking. i needed to be in the trees and the silence, so i said goodbye, though i wished i had words, i heard to be still.

bravo to you for listening so well. for following your inner guidance even though it may not look like the thing to do. even though it may not jive with family and friends or the “logical” way of living. even if it takes you away from where you think you would like to be. i have learned to trust that it is guiding us toward where we belong and to our deepest dreams being realized.

Helen keller said, “the best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. they must be felt with the heart.” i find this to be truth at it’s finest.

it is time, the veil is lifted and those that feel truth must live it or they too will be ill. blessings on your move, on your continued transformation and journey to the center of the heart. it is my prayer that as we become stronger in the new ways of walking on the earth, interacting with one another, aligning with the earth and spirit as one, that we ( i ) will be able to be grounded around all people, in all situations. for me it is a constant process of change and transformation. a continual lesson in letting go and surrender.

i would love to hear more about the process if you ever care to share it.

in light
in love

soulfriend – http://www.tribe.net, entheonvillage – brc

TT

The one thing that I question is the slow collapse. It appears that many signs are pointing the direction of an economic collapse… however I just don’t now enough about it to say for sure. And I also know that there are thousands of people who study economics, who work in the government, who have positions of power and influence… and I’m just not convinced that all those people could be totally blind. Perhaps there is something I don’t know. Perhaps the Oil companies are waiting to roll out technology at the right moment to keep the American people strung out and dependent on them and avoid an all out revolt.

So aside from the proposed threat of social-economic-political collapse, I certainly do think that we are on the edge of an envioronmental cliff, and sometimes progress means taking a step backwards. Or perhaps a ten steps. Let’s go back to the beginning of the industrial age, when steam engines and electric cars were invented.

What do you think?